Wrong impressions.

I'm not like what you think I am. Sorry for that. That's my weakness. Yes. I'm short of knowledge but I'll try my best to treasure the knowledge that I have and not keeping it just for myself. Please, you are always allowed to correct me if I'm wrong. Sometimes I say things that I don't want to. Thinking to make the person happy when I didn't think of making The One happy. I could take it back but my mouth shut tight. All I could do is just repent but I don't think it is enough. But I am sure that Allah will always accept pure and sincere repentance. I keep telling myself to improve but I'm not. It's not constant. Some people would say this is a personality crisis but it's not. I know who I am but I keep ignoring that one particular door that leads me to the right way. 

ALLAH SWT berfirman dalam sebuah hadith qudsi :

"Wahai Bani Adam, apabila engkau mengajukan permohonan dan mengharap kepada-Ku, maka Ku ampuni segala yang ada padamu tanpa peduli. Wahai Bani Adam, sekalipun dosamu bertumpuk-tumpuk hingga setinggi langit, tapi kemudian engkau meminta ampun kepada-Ku, nescaya Ku-ampuni dosamu. Wahai Bani Adam, sekiranya engkau datang dengan dosa setimbang bumi, kemudian engkau menemui Aku dalam keadaan tidak mempersekutukan Aku dengan sesuatu pun, nescaya Aku kurniakan ampunan setimbang dosa itu" (HR. At-Tirmidzi)

"Ya Allah, janganlah kau palingkan hatiku setelah kau memberi pertunjuk kepadaku. Sesungguhnya solatku, ibadahku, hiduoku dan matiku hanyalah untukmu."

May Allah bless you :)

Time.

I'm quite sad. I think this is the worst Ramadhan ever. No no, I don't blame Ramadhan. I blame myself. I eat a lot for Iftar, for the past one week I haven't have my sahur, I recite al-Quran only regularly and I went for tarawih just for some nights. Maybe because I went for Iftar outside a lot and I once left my Maghrib prayer because I wen't back late. Usually, if I don't buy food and eat in my room, I always perform my Maghrib prayer at the very last minute. Because Ramadhan is about to end now, I'm gonna try my best to perform ibadah for Allah from what is left. The past has gone. What I need to do is improve, improve and improve for the next days. Also, I need to improve my time management skill. So bad. I procrastinate a lot. A LOT I TELL YA! A great deal of procrastination.

May Allah bless you. :)

What is the difference between jealousy and envy?

It's the same. But envy is actually a stronger feeling of jealousy. I wouldn't say I envy her. Not to that level yet. But, I am jealous. Yeah. Sometimes it pisses me off. What could do I do? Don't make my life complicated. Untangle everything before I go to sleep. Everything would be easier, InsyaAllah.

May Allah bless you. :)

Plans.

Okay, InsyaAllah, I've made some plans.

Today: Finish ALL the homeworks and CTU assignment.
Tomorow: Do chores. (Lipat kain, vaccuum, wash the bathroom) Kalau ada lebih masa, Index.
Sabtu: Jalan2. Pagi pergi appointment, then tengok Harry Potter (Y) after that pergi tazkirah Ustaz Azhar Idrus :D
Ahad: Buy a new glasses spectacle and pack my stuff. Time to go. :(

InsyaAllah, I'll stick to this plan.
We plan but Allah destined. 

May Allah bless you. :)

:V

I bought Imam Muda: Memecah Tradisi album! It's the first time a bought an album with my own money. Yippee! It has 8 songs in it. Although the songs are great but I'm still not satisfied. I want solo from each Imam Muda. Yeahaha! :DD

Drive, Driving, Drove

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.
Mornin'! :D

Just now around 7 was the first time I drove alone by myself after I dropped my sister to her school and my mom to LRT station. It was SCARY. I wasn't sure of myself but I kept a straight face lying to myself that I could make it. Alhamdulillah, I did! After this probably at 11, InsyaAllah, I'll go to Carrefour to buy some things. I wanted to make macaroons actually but no one have faith in me. I should prove them wrong, right? I think I better start at just bake cookies before moving on to crispy-sweet-attractive macaroons. Nyum! :9

Well, gotta get back to work. I'm doing research on 'Importance of Ibadah in Muslims Life'.

May Allah bless you. :)

:D

Well, I am sort of satisfied after 'renovating' my blog. I love doing it! I wanted to write a blog on tumblr but it seems like tumblr is not right for writing so I'm back to Blogger. I read my previous posts. Actually it was just 5 entries and the last one was updated on April 2009. Yikes! All of it was pathetic. My language was everywhere! There were lots of grammatical errors. I was such a loser. Still am, though.