Unsettling.

Bismillahirrahamanirrahim

I went for my MEdSI interview today at UiTM Shah Alam. I was really nervous when I arrived. I couldn't think straight and I stuttered even when I was talking to my friends. We all discussed a bit about the current issues in education and I couldn't give any ideas because some of it I didn't even know what they were talking about except about PTPTN. 

I was at TEC-4 and I was with Sri. They were only 6 interviewees including me and Sri. While we were waiting for our turn, Sri and I talked about a lot of things. She loves to talk and give ideas. I got closer with her. 

When it was my time, I got in and there were 2 interviewers and there were really really friendly especially the one who is a lecturer at UiTM. We talked as if we're friends so I feel relieved. And then she asked me why I choose UIA. Lastly they asked me to teach some and I taught a little bit of adjectives. Really simple ones. And then it was over. I was smiling all the way.

When I wanted to go out through the door, I saw the door was not closed properly and I saw Sri smiled widely at me. She said she saw and heard me teaching. It was seriously embarassing but I've done my best.

OK, why is the title 'Unsettling'? It's because I thought that I would feel relieved about getting through interview but I don't. I feel like doing it again because I stuttered at some parts and I said 'have sitted'. T^T And then the lecturer corrected me. SERIOUSLY TAK PUAS HATI. Not with the interviewers of course, I'm not satisfied with myself. 

Oh well, what to do. It's done anyway. I'll just pray what's best for me. 

Oh yea! A reminder for whoever is taking the MEdSI interview and you got UiTM for your choice. BE PREPARED MENTALLY. Some of my friends got bashed, literally bashed by the interviewers. So if you really want this, fight your heart out! 

Peace be upon you. :D

There's always a first time in everything.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

And so, yesterday was my first time joining Jumaah prayers. Weee~

I went to INTEC Shah Alam to get my academic transcript at the office for my interview. It was about 11 o'clock there and my dad decided to get something to eat. We went to a restaurant inside the compound of Masjid Sultan Salahuddin Abdul Aziz Shah. We went there a lot of times even before I went to UiTM.

At first my dad just asked me to wait in the car while the Jumaah prayers conducted but then  I said if I could I wanna join. It would be quite an experience. And it was!

The Masjid was huge and really beautiful. I went upstairs which was the place for Muslimahs. I get to face the Mimbar and I felt really peaceful there. After a few minutes, there was an Ustadz giving tazkirah for about half an hour. He talked about Rejab and how it is a month full of barakah and we should work hard performing our ibadah.

Then suddenly there was a group of people going inside and I saw some people bow down and did the 'ampun tuanku' thing with their hand. I don't know how else to describe it. xD You know what I mean, right? OK. It was the Sultan of Selangor. Suddenly I got so excited over it and peeked down.

Anyway, then there was the khutbah. It was about entertainment in Islam. I'll briefly explain it. It cannot be something that is against the syariah of Islam like songs that lead to maksiat such as describing the appearance of a woman.

Other than that the songs should to be something which brings us closer to Allah. Not something that brings us farther like not performing our daily prayers. Also something that nurture and educate us.

If the singers consist of women, only women can listen to it.

I myself feel guilty of this lagi lagi Kpop but I'll try my best to delete songs that are described by the statements above.

The rest I leave it to you guys but don't forget to listen to nasheeds and zikirs. Maher Zain ada, Sami Yusuf ada. Best tau. Heeee. I recommend you guys to buy Sami Yusuf's Wherever You Are album. You won't regret it. Honestly. InsyaAllah. :)))

Moving on...

Then, it was time for the Jumaah prayer. The Imam recited the verses of Holy Quran beautifully. He recited parts of Surah al-Waqiah for both rakaahs. I know some of the meanings of the verses and it moved my heart deeply. For the second rakaah, I could hear the Iman's voice was different. And then when he recited these verses,


"Kesudahannya: jika ia (yang mati itu) dari orang-orang " Muqarrabiin " (dekat dengan Allah), Maka (ia akan beroleh) rehat kesenangan, dan rahmat kesegaran, serta Syurga kenikmatan. Dan jika ia dari puak kanan, Maka (akan dikatakan kepadanya):" Selamat sejahtera kepadamu, (kerana engkau) dari puak kanan". Dan jika ia dari (puak kiri) yang mendustakan (Rasulnya), lagi sesat, Maka sambutan yang disediakan baginya adalah dari air panas yang menggelegak,
Serta bakaran api neraka. Sesungguhnya (segala yang disebutkan) itu adalah kebenaran yang diyakini. Oleh itu, bertasbihlah dengan memuji nama Tuhanmu Yang Maha Besar." Surah al Waqiah:90-95


When it comes to the verse that I've highlighted, the Imam bursted  in to tears. He couldn't continue after a few tries. I'm sure most of us cried too. And then it was quiet for a moment. The whole Masjid was pin-drop quiet. Then the Imam continued to recite again.

It was really an experience for me, really and I suggest to all Muslimah, at least once, try to join Jumaah prayer. It wouldn't hurt. :)

Peace be upon you :D

It's time to get real.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Yeap, it's time to get real. I really need to sharpen my writing skills and need to keep myself strong to update my blog. Even it's just gonna be only a paragraph long.

Okay, somehow that kinda rhymes.

Moving on.

I'm going to have my MEdSI (Malaysian Educators Selection Inventory) this Sunday which is a ticket for me to pursue in TESL (Teaching English as a Second Language). I'm a big fat liar if I say I'm not nervous at all. I couldn't sleep last night because I was practising the interview inside my head. I made up the questions myself and answered it.

I did it everything in my mind.

So my eyes were wide awake because my brain was functioning hard.

I did my research of people who had gone to the interview and some of them are actually quite enjoyable. They get to sang and even demonstrated Tae Kwan Do moves.

For people who got interviewed in UiTM Shah Alam (which I am going to ._.) they got all mind twisted questions. Some even asked about opinions on politics.

Nevertheless, what they want to test is our personality. I hope I'll be able to go through the session like having a casual conversation between friends, that's what they want in educators.

No need to be all perfect and know-it-all.

I'll just consume myself with some of current issues especially in education and hope for the best.

Wish me luck.

Peace be upon you. :)